The Divine Decay

I  really have such a lack of interest in keeping a journal when I don't even have a sex life. This was supposed to be about my sex life and I can't write about sex when it is not happening.

It's not that there are girls who have made it clear they are interested. I just have no interest in having sex with them. They just lack what i am looking for. And it's not easy to let it be known that I like a flirty girl who is not afraid to flirt with other men. It's even harder to find a girl who is not afraid to flirt and yet stay devoted to her relationship.

The irony is that it took having my long term relationships to end in cheating and leaving me jaded to find myself here. I don't know if this is a product of a horrible defect brought on by my failed relationships. The oddity being that I have no interest in cheating or sleeping around, i am just really turned on by my lover teasing other men and the feelings of lust and cravings to have another man treat her in ways that makes her crave their touch.

Oh well. I will update when able. When I need to. When asked to.

Recently I have rediscovered an old friend. someone I use to have a big crush on and was actually pretty close to. I would always flirt with her and thanks to my beyond normal sex drive, I would always think about her bent over a table, counter or the arm of a couch while I am behind her.  My cock is hard just thinking about this. I wonder what she would think if I admitted that one of my biggest fantasies was to have her sit her wet pussy on my face and smother me as my tongue went deep into her?

It does lead me to want to just throw it out there and let her know. I think part of the other turn on is her seeing my cock get rock hard as she kept getting wetter.

As a recently single man, i find myself undressing women with my eyes and it being a big turn on. The bra & panties always turn me on.

Something tells me that keeping a journal of my thoughts and life could very well be one of the most difficult tasks in my life. The thoughts in my head speed through from the 48 ounces of Mt Dew I intake a day that is washed down my a 20 ounce RockStar. 

The caffeine is used to keep me awake in the morning as my sleep habits keep me on about 3 to 5 hours of sleep nightly. The catch 22 is that the caffeine then keeps me awake until 2am. I am then back up at 5am to get my day together. I then have to down more Dew and RockStar and yadda yadda yadda it continues. 

But the reason for my journal is to focus on my relationships. I have a history of finding some real crazy women and I always seem to let the good ones get away. 

Names will be changed, but the stories will be true. 

I will attempt to make my posts as vivid and detailed as possible. 

Please read and feel free to comment. I will make my posts public and open your discussion. 

For this journal, I will go by a made up name. While I am not sure if I will need to ever use a full name, I feel the need to come up with one. From here in, I am "Greg Dale Katz". 

You may call me Greg.